You're not alone, fella, I've been there, and let me assure you there's light at the end of your tunnel of pain.
I had a car crash 14 years ago and suffered back pain since then on and off, ranging from stiffness and loss of movement, to feelin' like I had been shot in the ass with buckshot!
Back in january I went through agony with left leg pain. I had never felt anything like this; I couldn't stand, sit, lie down, walk, nothing. Drugs only took the edge off it enough for me to fall asleep at night with exhaustion - noone thinks of that....coping with major pain drains you physically.
Then, after weeks of pain, it just stopped. Dead. Not a twinge. I was delighted.
Then, in the space of a couple of days, my whole leg went tingly, then numb, couldn't feel a thing. You could've drove a pickaxe through my foot and I would've just laughed.
Suddenly my leg was folding under me, I was walking like I was drunk, and falling over a lot. This is normal for us Irishmen when fulla beer, but not when stone cold sober!
My doc sent me for an MRI which showed L4/L5 disc had burst after years of wear and tear, bad posture etc. following my crash.
The ruptured disc was pressing on a nerve, hence the first painful, then numb, leg.
He sent me to a neurosurgeon who recommended a lumbar discectomy immediately, to try to save the damaged nerves. He said at 38, I was too young to be walking with a stick like my grandad used to!
That was back in April. On April 7th, I went for surgery at 5pm. At 9am the morning after surgery, I was outta bed walking around the ward, with 95% of the feeing back in my leg and foot.
Its now 3 months on, I'm back in work a month, and life is back to normal. I'm careful how I bend, don't overstretch myself, and don't try to lift heavy weights. I just get on with it, and have to remember that weak point will always be there behind me, waiting for me to forget and overdo it.
My hobby is resto-modding watercooled VW's, but my days of lifting axles, engine blocks and gearboxes (transmissions to you guys!) are well and truly over.
I got back into modelling while recuperating after surgery, and you guys and your work have entertained and inspired me over the last few months.
So, my friend, I say to you...don't lose heart, you can be fixed, and life will go on, beyond the pain and the worries, and you'll be back at your workbench, nostrils filled with paint fumes, CA on your fingers, with your latest build taking shape in your hands.
Keep well, and take care.
Paul.