Thanks all, I know memories are priceless and worth more than I know. I know we all have the shoulda, woulda, coulda's. I wasn't around my dad in my younger years being a Navy man. That and my mom and he divorced when I was young and he started a new family. It wasn't until I was around 20 that I started to want to have a bond with my dad. Looking back that was the best decision I made. He wasn't one to step forward and say hey, I screwed up by not being there for you. I sure wasn't gonna be the one that when he was on his death bed saying hey, I screwed up for not being the son I should of. I wanted him in my life and am glad I have the memories.. All that said, it doesn't make it any easier not having him here, and it sure won't bring him back physically. He will be missed and he will be loved as long as I walk this earth!!!! God Bless!!!!!