I know how you feel I lost my wife of 14 years on the 28 th of December 2013. she was just 43 but had been ill for so long. in the last months she could hardly walk anymore. she was put in Hospice for the last 2 1/2 days of her life. she looked so at peace when she died. But just knowing that she is no longer suffering is a ease on my mind. I miss her like crazy though.