I don't even know what to say, my friend. I have, for months, looked forward to seeing your updates on this project and have marveled (as you know) at the work you've done and the skills you have demonstrated. To say that I'm disappointed and saddened that it has come to this end is a tremendous understatement. And I can't begin to imagine how you feel. I know, with time, things will look cheerier than they do today. It is, as you said, very true that the experience you've gained will serve you well going forward, and at least you'll be able to utilize (hopefully) many of the components you've created in another build, not altogether unlike organ donors helping others to live and have a prosperous life...