Harry, I am so thankful that you are still here with us. I know that you are facing a lot of uncertainty in the future, but with the help of family and friends you will make it through all of these life changing events. When I had my series of TIA's (strokes) back in 2000 I had to learn to walk all over again. I went from a wheelchair, to a walker, to a cane, and eventually was able to move around on my own. I went through a period of depression, asking "Why me..??" I stopped modeling because it just didn't seem all that important anymore compared to health and just being alive. I had to stop driving due to partial loss of sight. Through the help and persistence of my family and great friends I overcame the depression and returned to this hobby which gave me back much enjoyment and purpose, and had a calming effect Life throws us curve balls at times and we just have no choice but to deal with them with a positive outlook in order to survive. It's not easy many times but life in general isn't easy... Hang in there buddy, stay strong and above all, don't be afraid to ask for help when and if you need it.