Yea its tough. In my youth, I switched from static models to slot cars. I had a great lot of success there, with of course immediate gratification every time I won. I got motors for free from Ron Mura which furthered the self esteem. I started a 1:1 car club ( Nor-Cal Street Machines ) after slot racing, and the 1:1 stuff fulfilled my alone time for a number of years. Now that I am older and have had the marriages and children, I cherish my alone time. I have accepted that my friends/family do not "get it" and thats OK. I hooked up with my model buddy from the 60's recently, and even he doesnt get it. Thats why I love MCM forums, I have made friends that above all, share my love of model cars and these are the guys I can relate to!